In a zombie apocalypse I'd be one of the people to survive...the first wave. I will sadly be bitten then killed by my fellow survivors or sacrifice myself- before fully turning- to save the others.

Funny thoughts will pop out if one has to endure disappointment in succession- like in one day.

Well, I managed to survive for four days without my sister. She's the managing one. I do not act my age so she has taken the role of elder away.
I even managed to keep up this jobless role.
I just wasn't able to endure the hunger.

Saturdays are for groceries and lounging in bed all day but since she went to Korea, grocery shopping is hanging on a balance scale. I don't want this to be a ranting post but to enlighten anyone reading, it means the financer is not around. It's either me (jobless wonder), my man cousin (adventure-on-the-go), and my woman cousin (oh-you're-here-phantom) who needs to shoulder the expenses.. come on right? It's quite obvious that it should be ME!
>insert shocked then angry face here<
Asked the help if mineral water is still a-ok..nope. One gallon left until tomorrow. We are so not gonna dehydrate ourselves. So okay. 100 for 5 gallons. No problemo just to save from being hassled this week. Next up is food. She said we still had eggs (2 in the rack), 2 small fishes fishes fisheees, and a small unidentified meat (dunno what it is because it was just a cursory glance, it's inside the freezer btw). Gave her 300 to buy something. Just somethiiing!! For crying out loud! She said maybe she and man cousin will buy tomorrow. Okay. She asked if I'm going out because she is. Nope- I told her to bring her kid with her. She did. This was 3 in the afternoon.

I heard the rumble of my stomach pets at around 5pm..went down and had a banana with peanut butter and coffee. At around 8p., I just realized they weren't back yet. Ookaay. It was almost ten when I finally got out of the safe haven called The Room and ventured to ak my girl cousin if she wanted me to buy something for her since I'd be buying my dinner outside. She gave me noodles instead. The kind that you have to boil. We both then went downstairs to forage for food. Found the fishes swimming in ice- defrost status activated. Oil and pan readied on the stove. Went ahead to heat up water for the noodles to swim in. Realized the fire was going steadily..steadily..steadily out.
Tried to give cpr to the stove but the click I heard was ominous. Girl cousin went down and checked. Gasul's dead. DEAD!

I stared at the stove for awhile. Culinary aspirations ruined because of thiiiiiissss!! Packed the noodles back. Oil returned to container. Brooded for a while.
The good thing about living here is the proximity to life, errr food-producing stalls. Tapsilog is the best tasting dish in my whole life! For tonight.

Everything that transpired had me thinking about zombies. We survive because we needed to. Tomorrow, however, is another day.

Sinangag express is not open on Sundays.
Tomorrow will be grocery day! Even if I have to let out the magical weapon called debit card.
Sister will be bound for home tomorrow. I think.

The good thing about tonight was the the cousins discussed about buying the burner. Electricity is not rare here so they can at least use that in case the gasul dies again.

Arrrghh. I am so not getting over the fact that I wasn't able to cook. (This happens in a blue moon, just so you know). Frustrations of my life.

There will be chocolate from the grocery tomorrow. Of that I have no doubt.
>evil smirk here<

A small stone defeated a giant. It has also been known to injure unwary travellers and merry makers.
Beware of stones.
-_-||

Beautiful to look at but the danger lies beneath. 

Just wear slippers or some protective covering for your feet. You'll survive.

Just make sure you don't step on a stone on your way up..or while walking on a road somewhere.

This somewhat irrelevant post is due to the fact that two friends injured themselves on stones. 

Yes..stones. One had a complete fracture due to tripping on one. 

Let's all be careful since it's summer and slippers are common footwear.

P.s. The long absence sucks. Sorry for that.

Decisions are Tough

A little over 2 months ago, I was referred by a client to a friend for "business"- respectable business mind you. It seemed like I could actually learn from my mentor (what that friend called herself). She was that good. Things got in the way, like accreditation of certain hospitals..tsktsk and the responsibilities piled on me, whew! They were hard to bear because I kept pushing for perfection (to no avail, I learned) so I decided to halt our connection or association thinking that it was just for a time but until now, I still haven't contacted her back..(shame).. So I decided to make a stand- against warring thoughts- that instead of picking up where we left before the accreditation, I will have to make my career outside the country bloom.
Move forward!
In case you're wondering about my mentor, she's what we call here part of a pyramid.. (scam? I dunno..) It would have allowed me, after a good number of years, to actually earn enough money without going outside the country for work because it will be able to sustain me and my family already. So I erased second thoughts about my decision and decided to learn to keep my enthusiasm for work here until such time that I'm ready to go hunting (outside the country work, eheh).
It's not like I don't like to go exploring or travelling.. I like them but the chances of having great adventures while you're working full time with different time frames is almost nil. Uhuh, my life's that boring...but some of the times me and my friends did manage to travel, I enjoyed it. Who doesn't love a good vacation, eh?
So that's my silver lining right there.
My mentor (redundaaaaant) actually had one homework for me to do before our fated separation.. To list 100 things you would like to do in your lifetime in a small notebook. I just remembered it and decided to give it a try. If you can't do all of them, at least you've done some. Life prioritizing.
So yeah. Here I am thinking hard on what to write and put in my notebook.
Who else is practicing this? I know only one person aside from my mentor who's writing a small bucketlist of her life. That's what it is right? A bucketlist.

 Fave happy colors to inspire me. (^o^)

This was actually written 12/10 at 1:10 am.. just so I'll remember. ^^

Sloth. Envy. I just realized these are my main problems in life. 

Recently I read Sandra Hill's vangels books about the VIK with the seven deadly sins tainting them...I came to the conclusion (finally) that sloth and envy are my two weakest links..they are actually what keeps me from growing as a person! (uhuh..deep thoughts coming)...

Upon recollection of past week's events, I realized that for me, I was quite busy-dec 4 to 6, I just kept reading some books I downloaded ie. you know.. the above books about vangels. I read on and on, even after realizing that sloth is one of my problems (the second book homes in on that after all). I kept reading and lounging in bed so that by the time- or date- our electricity bill was due, I p.a.n.i.c.k.e.d..but thankfully I arrived in time to pay. (wheeeewww! that) TA-DA! close call. Nevertheless, it let my spirits down.. realizing what a contemptible person I've become to allow something like reading for pleasure to detract me from my responsibilities.. (self hate? nah) The second realization I had (remember envy?) came when I saw Rorouni Kenshin (uhuh! eat that! ^^,). I envied a lot of things there. His skills- especially in the kitchen, their capacity to survive in such trying environments and still triumph! I envied the way they seemed to fly, slide, fight (I'm shallow that way hehe), I also envied the leading lady (who doesn't?), but most of all, I envied the actor playing the protagonist- he's younger than me by one year and success and all the good stuff seems to be getting in his way! 

Then I began pondering, thinking and delving deeeeeep to know what I lack. Pretty obvious now-remember sloth and envy? I realized that the cycle of 1) sloth- not doing everything I need to do. Or w.o.r.s.e., leaving it for another day, another week, then a year (HAAD?), all for the sake of letting comfort-mine- come first. It's usually, "Ooohh..it's a long time before I can get to save some money to take the test so I'll just put it off for now" (when I can actually pay it with half my monthly salary), then there's "I don't feel like studying yet. My friend studied but she didn't make it.. I'll just take the test when I'm ready".. all this happening in my head while I lay lounging in bed, reading nonsense books (really..r.e.a.l.l.y, how many romance novels can you stomach reading in a day?), then I view IG, then youtube (even if there's nothing new from subscriptions), and even sometimes just staring at google and typing anything that would pop in my mind- sense of being adrift in my own world where everything is routine now and in general, letting life pass me by. I am discontent but too lazy to do anything about it now. What are dreams if you do not wake up and start making them come true? 2) I envy some people.. even co workers doing things like sidelines (private legal ventures) to boost their incomes. I envy them but I don't know and don't have the motivation to actually move forward and initiate something to propel me to success. I get discouraged.. envy then sloth, ooohhh they have bigger earnings..but it will take too much time for me to do that.. ooohhh they have bigger income.. but it's to bothersome to try it out.. see? a cycle.. 

I dunno what happened to me but let me tell you, I was quite an enterprising kid. Selling pens to fellow classmates who have the tendency to lose theirs. (due to carelessness, not sabotage on my part! hehe) then selling prepaid load- which became tedious in the end because I needed to reload my credits in order to have something to load with.. and others.just.Won't.PAY! (bullies!!)

So I think back and ask myself- what pivotal, significant event in my life changed me to this seemingly boundless person? I dunno. Hazard a guess.

Maybe because my energy wasted away while studying in nursing school? Or maybe for the board exams? Or maybeeeee... working in an unappreciative environment (my opinion only!)? who knows?

All these realizations will do nothing for me- except make me realize and to remind me over and over- of how my life's turning out unpleasantly (if I say so myself eh?) and we just don't know, this maybe my ticket to help me become proactive and begin searching again for that elusive inner peace (reeeaalllyyy now?) and contentment- maybe even success? Dare I hope? Heh. It's all getting muddled up now. It's almost 4am (yeah    it took exactly that long), and my eyelids are drooping. I just wanted to get these thoughts out. Categorize and sort through them even though it's kind of convoluted (and I'm beginning not to see the point)..I will look at this as a new start. This entry might just be the one to tip this clueless and boundless boulder- aka me- to move and put one foot in front of the other, one day at a time and to take a few innocuous events as new opportunities to be grabbed, used and enjoyed.

Towards success!! 

Now let's imagine Kenshin's (takerruuuu's~) peaceful smiiiilllleeee..

P.S. a little creativity for today.. inspired by.. rubikscube907 from youtube!! yey! ( hope u don't mind my sharing of this project..)

VL- off week day 1

10.22.12 started with a cup of uno’s cholocate drink. Then bro and I went to it park (travelled for almost 2 hrs!) and waited for sis to meet us buuuuut she was late so we walked..and walked and walked until finally!mimi arrived! then we went to chatime!! gonna lurv freshly brewed milk tea. <3 
We then walked some more to find junkfood..uhuh..junkfood for a cozy hello hans movie. (sis went back to her office so it was just me and jr) a movie turned out to be two movies since mimi wanted us to wait for her. She arrived just in time for the final credits of the last movie. (hahaha!)
Instead of trying to find another spot to try new food- which meant more walking- me and jr opted to go home early, thus meeting the newly updated gnote of mi dadz which he just got around to doing since he was afraid something might go wrong. Now it's dreamland time for a new chill-adventure-nature time tomorrow (i hope?)

Bada 2.0 camera :D

Here's an update! I found the different modes and settings of the bada 2.0 camera. Thank Goooood! XD

The first fifteen pictures featured are from the latest trip. Most were shot using the touchscreen button compared to the one located at the side. As you can see, some are blurry but most were actually quite decent..hehehe..there are some pretty nice shots if I may say so. Enjoy!

Now, the next pictures were taken last year with bada 1.2 with the old camera application. using the side camera button.. (ugh I forgot what it's called). 

What do you think? Can you see any difference between the pictures? Some factors may have affected the shoot, like the sun and the angle (etc) but all in all, I think I may have judged the 2.0 camera application too harshly the first time. Being an unprofessional photographer, my eyes aren't as trained as the ones who do this for a living or hobby so for me, it's quite decent and both pictures have more or less the same score. (ISO both times set to auto). The touchscreen button sure makes taking pictures a breeze but the downside is, sometimes it does not focus as you would have wanted it to focus (eg. the blurred pictures above), 

In conclusion, the camera may not have improved dramatically in my estimation, but neither has it deteriorated...so I may have to keep my phone after all!! ^__^ 

What are your thoughts on the pictures? any improvement on the quality or not? hehe

Cheers! 

Bada 2.0 visited 0(*o*)0

Yup. Finally, that's bada 2.0 you're seeing on my wave 2. I upgraded 2 days ago and it took me from 11:30 am to 5pm just to download all files and for the upgrade to start. :D

There are a lot of blogs out here in the internet about the pros and cons of the bada software. Honestly, there's not much difference. Granted, the UI is different since it looks to me, a cross between android and iOS. No kidding. 

The interface was revamped and now it sports smaller and sharper icons. 

The little knobs for on and off  here I saw first on iOS and the drop down menu which features the notifications and toggles (although they were there before) has now auto rotate option which is also seen on android. (yeah I like 1d). It was only wifi, bluetooth and sound toggles before. :D

There is now also the option to add folders and delete or uninstall applications by long pressing the icon. Much the same as on android. (I don't have an iphone so dunno if they have this). 

The music player has on screen sound adjustment button (lower left here) so you won't have to find and grapple for the volume rocker located at the side of the phone. 

The camera and video recording capabilities are pretty much so so. I found online that the takes of the camera from 1.2 is much better that on 2.0, yes, it definitely is true. There were also more options/settings for the 1.2 os and the colors were better handled there. Not an official photographer so dunno the right terms to describe it.. the new pictures look more pixelated. ( or is it just my eyesight?) The colors are not as vibrant. I'm going on a trip tomorrow so I'll see how the new camera works. If it's not as good (or better) than before (and since I bought this phone for it's screen and camera), I would probably switch back to 1.2.  

Those are just a few (and there's only a few :D) upgrade differences I've discovered so far.

There are also new applications that were included during the upgrade, you can see the icons for Ch@ton and allshare o)) and there's the caster application. Unfortunately, I haven't explored these yet but allshare I think was there before the upgrade but not with it's own icon. The chaton application allows users to communicate with friends through online interactions. Much like viber and kakaotalk (both are better imo) and caster allows users to share web content, phone to pc- pc to phone.. cloud? ^_^ 

There you have it. My take on the new update my wave 2 got from kies..it took 2 months for it to reach the Philippines and there's nothing really exciting about it except for the fact that the previous applications I downloaded were totally erased and no backup was done (my fault) because I thought it was only another 1.2 update.. not the big 2.0 upgrade. XD Good thing that I synced my phone so samsung apps has a copy/list of all the applications that I had downloaded before in case I wanted to have it again. hehe

What's your opinion on the bada 2.0 update? Any new things you've discovered that may help me find my love again for this antiquated phone I bought last year? You're very welcome to put your thoughts in the comments. Maybe this phone's going to be exciting again. Who knows. Have a great day!