Decisions are Tough

A little over 2 months ago, I was referred by a client to a friend for "business"- respectable business mind you. It seemed like I could actually learn from my mentor (what that friend called herself). She was that good. Things got in the way, like accreditation of certain hospitals..tsktsk and the responsibilities piled on me, whew! They were hard to bear because I kept pushing for perfection (to no avail, I learned) so I decided to halt our connection or association thinking that it was just for a time but until now, I still haven't contacted her back..(shame).. So I decided to make a stand- against warring thoughts- that instead of picking up where we left before the accreditation, I will have to make my career outside the country bloom.
Move forward!
In case you're wondering about my mentor, she's what we call here part of a pyramid.. (scam? I dunno..) It would have allowed me, after a good number of years, to actually earn enough money without going outside the country for work because it will be able to sustain me and my family already. So I erased second thoughts about my decision and decided to learn to keep my enthusiasm for work here until such time that I'm ready to go hunting (outside the country work, eheh).
It's not like I don't like to go exploring or travelling.. I like them but the chances of having great adventures while you're working full time with different time frames is almost nil. Uhuh, my life's that boring...but some of the times me and my friends did manage to travel, I enjoyed it. Who doesn't love a good vacation, eh?
So that's my silver lining right there.
My mentor (redundaaaaant) actually had one homework for me to do before our fated separation.. To list 100 things you would like to do in your lifetime in a small notebook. I just remembered it and decided to give it a try. If you can't do all of them, at least you've done some. Life prioritizing.
So yeah. Here I am thinking hard on what to write and put in my notebook.
Who else is practicing this? I know only one person aside from my mentor who's writing a small bucketlist of her life. That's what it is right? A bucketlist.

 Fave happy colors to inspire me. (^o^)

This was actually written 12/10 at 1:10 am.. just so I'll remember. ^^

Sloth. Envy. I just realized these are my main problems in life. 

Recently I read Sandra Hill's vangels books about the VIK with the seven deadly sins tainting them...I came to the conclusion (finally) that sloth and envy are my two weakest links..they are actually what keeps me from growing as a person! (uhuh..deep thoughts coming)...

Upon recollection of past week's events, I realized that for me, I was quite busy-dec 4 to 6, I just kept reading some books I downloaded ie. you know.. the above books about vangels. I read on and on, even after realizing that sloth is one of my problems (the second book homes in on that after all). I kept reading and lounging in bed so that by the time- or date- our electricity bill was due, I p.a.n.i.c.k.e.d..but thankfully I arrived in time to pay. (wheeeewww! that) TA-DA! close call. Nevertheless, it let my spirits down.. realizing what a contemptible person I've become to allow something like reading for pleasure to detract me from my responsibilities.. (self hate? nah) The second realization I had (remember envy?) came when I saw Rorouni Kenshin (uhuh! eat that! ^^,). I envied a lot of things there. His skills- especially in the kitchen, their capacity to survive in such trying environments and still triumph! I envied the way they seemed to fly, slide, fight (I'm shallow that way hehe), I also envied the leading lady (who doesn't?), but most of all, I envied the actor playing the protagonist- he's younger than me by one year and success and all the good stuff seems to be getting in his way! 

Then I began pondering, thinking and delving deeeeeep to know what I lack. Pretty obvious now-remember sloth and envy? I realized that the cycle of 1) sloth- not doing everything I need to do. Or w.o.r.s.e., leaving it for another day, another week, then a year (HAAD?), all for the sake of letting comfort-mine- come first. It's usually, "Ooohh..it's a long time before I can get to save some money to take the test so I'll just put it off for now" (when I can actually pay it with half my monthly salary), then there's "I don't feel like studying yet. My friend studied but she didn't make it.. I'll just take the test when I'm ready".. all this happening in my head while I lay lounging in bed, reading nonsense books (really..r.e.a.l.l.y, how many romance novels can you stomach reading in a day?), then I view IG, then youtube (even if there's nothing new from subscriptions), and even sometimes just staring at google and typing anything that would pop in my mind- sense of being adrift in my own world where everything is routine now and in general, letting life pass me by. I am discontent but too lazy to do anything about it now. What are dreams if you do not wake up and start making them come true? 2) I envy some people.. even co workers doing things like sidelines (private legal ventures) to boost their incomes. I envy them but I don't know and don't have the motivation to actually move forward and initiate something to propel me to success. I get discouraged.. envy then sloth, ooohhh they have bigger earnings..but it will take too much time for me to do that.. ooohhh they have bigger income.. but it's to bothersome to try it out.. see? a cycle.. 

I dunno what happened to me but let me tell you, I was quite an enterprising kid. Selling pens to fellow classmates who have the tendency to lose theirs. (due to carelessness, not sabotage on my part! hehe) then selling prepaid load- which became tedious in the end because I needed to reload my credits in order to have something to load with.. and others.just.Won't.PAY! (bullies!!)

So I think back and ask myself- what pivotal, significant event in my life changed me to this seemingly boundless person? I dunno. Hazard a guess.

Maybe because my energy wasted away while studying in nursing school? Or maybe for the board exams? Or maybeeeee... working in an unappreciative environment (my opinion only!)? who knows?

All these realizations will do nothing for me- except make me realize and to remind me over and over- of how my life's turning out unpleasantly (if I say so myself eh?) and we just don't know, this maybe my ticket to help me become proactive and begin searching again for that elusive inner peace (reeeaalllyyy now?) and contentment- maybe even success? Dare I hope? Heh. It's all getting muddled up now. It's almost 4am (yeah    it took exactly that long), and my eyelids are drooping. I just wanted to get these thoughts out. Categorize and sort through them even though it's kind of convoluted (and I'm beginning not to see the point)..I will look at this as a new start. This entry might just be the one to tip this clueless and boundless boulder- aka me- to move and put one foot in front of the other, one day at a time and to take a few innocuous events as new opportunities to be grabbed, used and enjoyed.

Towards success!! 

Now let's imagine Kenshin's (takerruuuu's~) peaceful smiiiilllleeee..

P.S. a little creativity for today.. inspired by.. rubikscube907 from youtube!! yey! ( hope u don't mind my sharing of this project..)

VL- off week day 1

10.22.12 started with a cup of uno’s cholocate drink. Then bro and I went to it park (travelled for almost 2 hrs!) and waited for sis to meet us buuuuut she was late so we walked..and walked and walked until finally!mimi arrived! then we went to chatime!! gonna lurv freshly brewed milk tea. <3 
We then walked some more to find junkfood..uhuh..junkfood for a cozy hello hans movie. (sis went back to her office so it was just me and jr) a movie turned out to be two movies since mimi wanted us to wait for her. She arrived just in time for the final credits of the last movie. (hahaha!)
Instead of trying to find another spot to try new food- which meant more walking- me and jr opted to go home early, thus meeting the newly updated gnote of mi dadz which he just got around to doing since he was afraid something might go wrong. Now it's dreamland time for a new chill-adventure-nature time tomorrow (i hope?)

Bada 2.0 camera :D

Here's an update! I found the different modes and settings of the bada 2.0 camera. Thank Goooood! XD

The first fifteen pictures featured are from the latest trip. Most were shot using the touchscreen button compared to the one located at the side. As you can see, some are blurry but most were actually quite decent..hehehe..there are some pretty nice shots if I may say so. Enjoy!

Now, the next pictures were taken last year with bada 1.2 with the old camera application. using the side camera button.. (ugh I forgot what it's called). 

What do you think? Can you see any difference between the pictures? Some factors may have affected the shoot, like the sun and the angle (etc) but all in all, I think I may have judged the 2.0 camera application too harshly the first time. Being an unprofessional photographer, my eyes aren't as trained as the ones who do this for a living or hobby so for me, it's quite decent and both pictures have more or less the same score. (ISO both times set to auto). The touchscreen button sure makes taking pictures a breeze but the downside is, sometimes it does not focus as you would have wanted it to focus (eg. the blurred pictures above), 

In conclusion, the camera may not have improved dramatically in my estimation, but neither has it deteriorated...so I may have to keep my phone after all!! ^__^ 

What are your thoughts on the pictures? any improvement on the quality or not? hehe

Cheers! 

Bada 2.0 visited 0(*o*)0

Yup. Finally, that's bada 2.0 you're seeing on my wave 2. I upgraded 2 days ago and it took me from 11:30 am to 5pm just to download all files and for the upgrade to start. :D

There are a lot of blogs out here in the internet about the pros and cons of the bada software. Honestly, there's not much difference. Granted, the UI is different since it looks to me, a cross between android and iOS. No kidding. 

The interface was revamped and now it sports smaller and sharper icons. 

The little knobs for on and off  here I saw first on iOS and the drop down menu which features the notifications and toggles (although they were there before) has now auto rotate option which is also seen on android. (yeah I like 1d). It was only wifi, bluetooth and sound toggles before. :D

There is now also the option to add folders and delete or uninstall applications by long pressing the icon. Much the same as on android. (I don't have an iphone so dunno if they have this). 

The music player has on screen sound adjustment button (lower left here) so you won't have to find and grapple for the volume rocker located at the side of the phone. 

The camera and video recording capabilities are pretty much so so. I found online that the takes of the camera from 1.2 is much better that on 2.0, yes, it definitely is true. There were also more options/settings for the 1.2 os and the colors were better handled there. Not an official photographer so dunno the right terms to describe it.. the new pictures look more pixelated. ( or is it just my eyesight?) The colors are not as vibrant. I'm going on a trip tomorrow so I'll see how the new camera works. If it's not as good (or better) than before (and since I bought this phone for it's screen and camera), I would probably switch back to 1.2.  

Those are just a few (and there's only a few :D) upgrade differences I've discovered so far.

There are also new applications that were included during the upgrade, you can see the icons for Ch@ton and allshare o)) and there's the caster application. Unfortunately, I haven't explored these yet but allshare I think was there before the upgrade but not with it's own icon. The chaton application allows users to communicate with friends through online interactions. Much like viber and kakaotalk (both are better imo) and caster allows users to share web content, phone to pc- pc to phone.. cloud? ^_^ 

There you have it. My take on the new update my wave 2 got from kies..it took 2 months for it to reach the Philippines and there's nothing really exciting about it except for the fact that the previous applications I downloaded were totally erased and no backup was done (my fault) because I thought it was only another 1.2 update.. not the big 2.0 upgrade. XD Good thing that I synced my phone so samsung apps has a copy/list of all the applications that I had downloaded before in case I wanted to have it again. hehe

What's your opinion on the bada 2.0 update? Any new things you've discovered that may help me find my love again for this antiquated phone I bought last year? You're very welcome to put your thoughts in the comments. Maybe this phone's going to be exciting again. Who knows. Have a great day!

Life does get tedious doesn't it? If I were a quitter, the game would have been over a long time ago. But fortunately (or unfortunately), I'm not. Only by looking at the faces of my family and close friends- even those difficult to please clients- get me going most of the time.. Because who knows, maybe my grand adventure is just around the corner. :-D

no flashing!! :/ and cebu after earthquake vid

So I decided not to flash my bada phone. Let's just say I found my "sign". :)) I suppose at this point I have to update on my life. :::::> chadaaa!! a video I took when we were turned away from a mall after the earthquake (what were we thinking? 0_o) so we had to turn around and brave the streets again in order to EAT!

yup. we ate ( i was with bff chongmates mimi and intet with kuya randy the patient driver :)) about 7:30 am and this was taken 12:30 plus since it was a jungle out there that time. duh. We treated it like a drill for the end of the world and people were like pouring out the streets and meeting cars and chaos reigned for a while. I got home (after lunch at dimsum break mango) after 2 pm. right. And then I slept until 9 am the next morning. It was pretty stressful.. especially when the earthquake hit. We were inside a "beads" shop in manalili and the security guard- who only thought about protecting the store- CLOSED THE DOOR! how were we supposed to get out? duh. I'm not ever going back there again. Good thing I heard the owner shouting at him to open the doors. That mollified me a bit. A tiny bit. So.. that was pretty much the excitement I had so far this week. A lot of excitement in a while, actually.. It was wonderful! p.s. don't mind the shouting person you're going to hear in my video. She's hungry that time. And it's a joke- the shouting I mean. :)) take care and God bless everyone! May God keep you!! <3

Flashing your phones :D

On February last year I purchased a new phone (hurray!). The Cherry Mobile Nova was all that I thought I needed to complete my day since it was constantly calling out my name every time I entered a mall o.0 I had it for like 3 months before I started to get really bored of the stock android 2.1 that the phone came in so I searched online and encountered a few posts about rooting or flashing phones. 

On May 13, 2011 I just became (in my own world that day ^__^) a certified nova flasher. hahaha! Thanks to Geekierchick's blog I updated my nova to 2.3 gingerbread! woot!! and I enjoyed the benefits of having an upgraded os version and explored to my heart's content-yey! BUT.. after trying a few more updates (i tried flashing back and forth) I noticed that the battery was draining constantly and it went from more than a day of heavy usage to less than half a day! My hands got really clammy when this happened and I had to go and downgrade again. I found a blog (thanks to t-rex at pump out my paradigm here on blogger! :D) which taught me that my battery can still be saved! yey again! so I changed the kernel- yadayada-you can search it here on blogger so I won't post it anymore. XD It now lasts to more than a day and a half of normal usage and to a day and a few hours for heavy usage. My life was completed again... Then just last December, I searched online and discovered that bada 2.0 for the Samsung Wave 1 and 2 was released for Europe users (i think it was still the beta version..but still.. an upgrade..) and well.. it kinda impressed me. There's a new look to it. Aaaand the camera- which I like in this phone- has been improved (autofocus during video recording) so I thought "Hmmm.. what if I tried to flash this?" (By the way, my wave 2 was purchased a month before my cm nova). So that's the big question now. Should I flash my wave 2 or not? I'm currently, yes, as of this moment downloading the files to extract and upgrade my wave 2 (it's not the official version but so was the one I used in rooting my nova) and I'm still having an internal debate whether to push through with this or not. It says I have three hours left. It's a big file!! I'm excited but at the same time urrgghhh. What if something untoward happens? I cannot brick my phone. The service centers here have no clue what to do if it gets bricked (I know coz I know more about their products than they do-which doesn't say much for them). T_T 

I really need to be careful with this one. Me and my mom split the amount. So she paid half of this and it will crush her to know I killed my baby!! and by the way, I gave my graduating sister the nova as a present so this wave will have to be kept alive!! It's the dilemma I'm having because first, it's tiring to see the same screen with no hope of any customization (like effects on scrolling in android and live wallpapers) day after day. Second, I'm tired of having to exit my browser since it doesn't have text reflow so pages not fit for mobile browsing will have a big sign saying it's too big to display and then you will have to exit everything and click the internet sign in order to browse again. T_T third, if I upgrade this and it get's bricked, my mom and dad and sister will get mad. Why not be content with what you have? yadayada.. It's human to crave improvement in everything you do and in everything around you right? It's normal..but they won't understand.  I hope I can find some sort of sign to guide me. Preferably between now and three hours from now. hehehe

So there you have it. This is not a tutorial or tips on how to upgrade your phone but rather some sort of silly pity-rant-self congratulatory post. I'm dreadfully confused. But- que sera sera!! XD I'll post something when I've already decided on how to proceed. The bada 2.0 update for my phone in the Philippines and other parts of the world has been delayed for 2012 after they said it will all be available before new year 2012..but samsung's like that...keeping us hanging in the air. <sigh>

 

night shift

Woot! Just came from a 10 pm to 6am shift and I'm hiiiiiiiggghhh!! :D I just love days when I don't have to do anything except stare at the laptop or my at phone. o_0 I had to accompany my bff for her chest xray since she's coughing for almost 2 weeks and since she has nada appendix anymore, her immunity is lower compared to us people who didn't have appendectomy. :) Then she had to gimme breakfast (haha! I tried telling her no- no means yes right?- but she won the argument and now I just got home from eating at a Chinese restaurant. YUM! ^_^ I'm glad she won the argument. Then we walked with our very tired legs home (near home because I have to ride a puj and her, a tricycle to go deeper into the subdivision). That was the end of my day since I'm backwards like that. It's cooler that way. (Who am I kidding?) I love night shift it's just...night is for sleeping right? But I can't sleep as easily as I did before taking this job (insomniac here) so I think this shift would really be advantageous for me. Extra money (night def) + eating FOOD (bad food is the best when you're on night shift) + going home really early before anyone is up and about and the city is so quiet and almost clean. I just wish that days like these continue. I'm not fond of heat and rain and commotion so I lurv night duty. It let's you see all the beauty there is in a city when no one's still up except you (and your workmates during your shift). :D double happy day! ate with bff, slight activity (walking home), and seeing the sites of the city through eyes ready to pop out from lack of sleep.. hehehe! wattaday! Have a nice one everyone!
p.s. stilnox is ready to knock me off now. 3...2...1......zZZZzzZzzzzz -.-

the world. :-D

So I'm back!and between the last time I posted to today, I managed to get a few new insights to life.. starting with 'Life is not a basketball game, no one can sub for you when you're tired.' Therefore we need to take good care of our bodies! and let's remain positive all day long. I learned that it can actually reduce our stress levels if we smile (even if we feel dumb) when there's nothing to smile about. Try it!! :-D next is.. 'start small and build up from there.' like putting on eyeshadows, it's best not to put on a lot at first..build it up. No one starts at the top of the ladder-it's a long way down. Career-people know this (ahem). We always start from the bottom and working up maybe hard (really hard)but the things you learn along the way will work to your benefit once you're on top! :-D yey! that's 2!

new year-new direction

Optimism always abound at the start of a new year and I'm not a different case. One of the things I've always wanted was to let loose my inner self through the use of multimedia available today... but it always remained a dream- always there but so elusive it's enough to make you want to grind your teeth in frustration.The truth is, I am not sure how to begin everything- I'm not gifted with the ability to express myself with the written language, I almost always have short cryptic remarks compared to the long flowy sentences my friends can make.. but this year, I decided it's high time I started this 'step'. I'm going to take a leap forward and just enjoy what I'll see and experience when I land. So here's tHe first jump-make your own blog! Let's see where this'll lead us. =)